I have no redeeming qualities. i have nothing left. I don’t even have respect for myself. Everyone I consider my closest friends woke me up this morning and told me I have been taking advantage of them, and I never realized it. Never in my life have i felt this bad. And after all the shit I’ve been going through, this just topped it off. I’ve been running on one leg, I am about to collapse. Trying really hard not to do something stupid.
Feeling pretty sick, lost my voice from drinking to much and staying out all night. I’m 400$ short for the bills this month, and i’ve spent 200$ in the past 4 days. I’m completely self destructive. I fucking suck. I just want to run away from everything and just sleep. Nothing motivates me to help myself I’m just a waste of time. I have nothing.